Muddled and confused - but here goes!

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going direct the other way", and so the Story of the tale of two cities began -  a piece of prose I have always loved – and I have now found an occasion to use it.

No sooner do I get excited and start posting messages on my blog again, when things go horribly wrong. I suppose that is often the case when we are trying to create something, but I don't know about you when I start stumbling around trying to make you think of that makes sense of things something much more positive comes in its place. Hence this post starts with that quote.

The last 2 to 3 weeks have really been for me the season of light and the season of darkness all rolled into one.

So I just read through my past bloggings to see where I was getting too – if Indeed I was getting anywhere – and to see whether I needed to pay more attention to the basics I need. You see I make myself little notes everywhere, just when something catches my eye, and then it is all about weaving these odds and  ends into God's Golden thread.

Odd ends and basics  like water. I have experienced some of the worst muddleness and confusion that I have ever experienced in all my life and whilst the medical team thought at first it was the calcium levels out of order – which indeed initially it was, they now think  that it is dehydration so I am going to have to pump more water into my body and then let it quickly dissapear..

So Water – nothing more basic than that – and those of you who have heard of my baptism chat which i have delivered quite excitedledly at Christenings over the past 20 years.

will know I always emphasise the strength and importance of water in our lives – and say how important it is that we symbolise water in baptism telling us how Jesus is so important and powerful in each of our lives. 

And then one night this thought hit me - I have often mentioned that those who are close to me – Sue Charlotte Daniel Duncan, their families and my many wonderful friends always the closest, and I always associate them with the feeling of God's presence being with me. Perhaps in times to come there will be a time when they will not be physically

– What happens then – where is God then?

That is the work I need to concentrate on right now. There are many wonderful passages in the Bible supporting this – many I have already quoted.

Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”  - that is my favourite!