Excuse me a moment please!

A visit yesterday from one of the GPs from the surgery, one who I knew quite well during my time as Vicar of Rainworth.  It was good to see her.  

She came to review me following District Nurses'  call and her concern at a sugar reading of 2.8.  Just a gentle reminder to me that the Diabetes still needs looking after! And it will!

The GP and I are more concerned at my water retention "edema" due to cancer.  She has again doubled my water tablet, so if you come and visit me, and I get my little jug out, please don't be offended if I ask you to leave for a moment.  

How different from when I was  a baby/toddler, and as my mother has always proudly reminded me - "Richard was potty trained when he was 18 months!"  Oh dear I keep thinking to myself when I recall this little story, but then she also went on to say she carried a jam jar around just in case.  

Today with the medication they've got me on, it will not be jam jars I need but great big empty containers – so if you see me coming with a bag containing a funny shaped item – please don't be concerned.

Today, Saturday, has seen some of the family arrives for a cup of tea. It has been lovely to see some of our grandchildren, along with Louise, and Louise's parents and brother Anne, Roy and Jamie. They are a lovely family and over the past three or four years we haven't seen them quite so much as they don't drive and with my illness things have not been possible, which is a great shame!

Life for me at the moment is all about the bare necessities -  Water, jugs, cups of tea, Families, relationships!

Get these right, and we get everything else right.

By getting our fundamental relationships with God right, we can simply pass everything all our other worries and cares to  him and he will take good care of  each one of us. 

That's his promise to you and to me.

Getting the balance right

Once again I have managed to delete  my first attempt at this posting to my blog and I am saying very quietly to myself oh dear!

 

So here goes for another time. 

Just to bring you up to date since my last post, I have had 2 separate 2 nights' in either the hospital or the hospice trying to deal with my calcium levels. 

 

Calcium levels in "normal" people are not usually of much concern, but for cancer patients they can be critical, and they must be brought under control. Today I have had my blood tests and I'm now eagerly awaiting the results.

 

Today as I write I have just finished lunch with my sister Catherine and her husband Chris  and then they are taking me out in the afternoon.  We are going to go for a car ride into Derbyshire.

I'm trying to feel very stressfree without any worries. Those who know me well will know that worrying and being unstressed don't go very well with me. 

 

However as I sit in this pub I am feeling just for the moment that I haven't a care in the world.

But then the results from the blood tests coming to mind and I start worrying again.

 

As a Christian I feel worrying /stress and living out my face don't go together very well.

 

That reminds me of a Bible reading I have had so many times – let me read it again.

It is Matthew chapter 6 versus 25 to 27 and onwards

How they speak to me – go on, you open a bible and look at those words and let them speak to you.

So much for the preaching – that was not my idea at this stage of this posting. But just look at the words and let them speak to you.

 

So I have to get the balance correct between stress and stopping worrying, and being realistic about the future.

 

Many of you have either written a text or telephoned me to say you miss my blogs – and I agree it is a time since I last produced one.  I am now going to try and write a posting on my blog at least twice a week, hopefully more, which will be posted also on Facebook and twitter in the view and hope that as many people as possible can find out what's happening to me.

 

It may be very very short, it may be longer, but hopefully it will reach out to more people and on a more regular basis.

 

The second thing I want to do is to consolidate all my past postings into one form and if you would like me to send you an E copy of this, would you please let me know and I will gladly do so.

 

For me, let me take on board as I eat my Lunch, ride along without care or stress not worrying, and yet looking forward,  as St Matthew tells us, to God taking care of all our  needs.

Blessings!